Nakota

So today was really not a good day. I had to put my dog, Nakota, to sleep this morning. Something inside of him ruptured, either something that he ate that got stuck, or cancer that he had. Either way, he was really sick, and it was best for him. But I really miss him. He's the last of the animals that I grew up with. I remember sleeping on the living room floor in a sleeping bag the first 4 months he lived with us because he was afraid to be alone. We just had a connection. And now he's gone. But he was definitely not a dog that you easily forget, anyone who knew him will agree. I don't like saying 'knew' instead of 'knows'. But I can't change it, and it was the best thing for him, but I'll miss him. That just started off a day that really wasn't very good, at all, for many reasons. But I miss my boy.

Just things I guess

So, I don't know if anyone even reads these things anymore, I know I occassionally check them, but not often. I just felt the need to write here. A lot has happened since the last time I updated, and there's no way I can even begin to summarize it here. Or anywhere else for that matter. Junior year has been...interesting. I guess that's the best word for it. There have been many, many bad things, as well as many good. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I know that it's been the hardest year so far, and as I don't see senior year as being all the difficult, I think I agree with it being the hardest year. The schoolwork definitely sucks, I hate it. I really don't like school, except for the fact that it gets me out of the house. I'm not sure that even makes it worth it anymore. There are so many things going on, in my head and otherwise, I'm just very confused. And torn. And I know I'm just rambling here, but I haven't done that in a while, and it feels kinda nice. There's a lot of things I want to say, but can't. All I can say is, I feel like I'm heading in a direction that I'm not sure I want to go, but I don't know what to do or how to change it. So yeah, fun stuff, oh, and we start school on my birthday. Isn't that great? Happy birthday...let's go to school! Lol.